Breathing & Baby Steps!

Ugh! Why do I do this to myself? I throw everything on my plate and try to eat it all at once. I live my life the way my brother Sean eats. In courses, of course. He eats his salad and then when he is done he eats the main course. I throw it all in my mouth together. In turn I don’t think I give anything the time it needs to digest.

I’m referring to jumping the gun and talking with Netty about moving back home. I need to focus and get through the court date tomorrow and be cleared of that ass ache before I tackle another one. Then I need to go into Boston on Thursday to The Male Center to begin training. I have to train to be a volunteer for HIV/AIDS Outreach events. Hopefully that works and I can turn it into something that pays finically as well as mentally.

Then I cam focus on the next stage. Besides the way it went yesterday, I think I need to go to a garden shop and find olive seeds. Why you ask? Because I think to get Netty to see thing in my perception I need more than an olive branch. I think I need the whole tree or maybe even a whole friggin’ forest.

Well one thing is for certain. I think I got my bearings and wit back in tact. I think my last post was too much of a downer as well as slightly incoherent. But that’s good I guess, because now I can feel more like Goldie Hawn in The First Wives Club when she uttered the classic, “I have feelings! I’m an Actress I have all of them.”