Suicide Is A Pain In The Ass!

With all my recent set setbacks these past couple of months, I would often lie in bed at night wondering if it would be best if I just ended it all.

Well I decided that is definitely not an option. Besides I could never decided how I would do it.

I could cut myself, but my inner Joan Crawford said that would leave such a mess in my apartment for some to have to clean up.

Then I thought about hanging myself. That's wouldn't be a good idea either. Even though I’m a light weight, I'm sure I'd end up like Sissy Spacek in Crimes Of The Heart and crash down with the lighting fixtures.

Or I could just OD. But, I figured I’d probably take the wrong dosage and end up back in the hospital and under constant intruding eyes of Netty.

So I came to the conclusion, that all I should do is just clear my head, fall asleep and remember tomorrow is a new day & a fresh start.

Plus as my friends and doctors have been telling me that I'm really starting to believe is that there is a resilience in me that just doesn’t want to die.

So for all of you out there. I know we all have this resilience in us. So let’s work together and find it so we can all strive together and to tell life, "Fuck You! I'll kick your ass! You won't kick mine!"